Tuesday, January 27, 2015

I Really Miss Him

Losing my dad has been the deepest loss I've ever experienced.  You never think about how much of a void there will be to lose someone until it actually happens.  The separation is so hard.  

When I was in high school I had gotten in a fight with my dad while my boyfriend at the time was hanging out with me at our house.  I stormed out the door to walk it off and my boyfriend followed me to walk with me.  He was Mormon and I knew that one of his beliefs was that when people die they'll be with their family on a planet or world or something for "all time and eternity."  While my beliefs of Heaven were different, I do remember saying to him, "Why on earth would you want to be stuck with your family for eternity?!  I can't imagine being stuck with my dad that long."  

Funny looking back on that now because my heart longs for the reunion with my dad that will be eternal with no more separation to cause this void and sorrow within.  It's really true...you don't fully appreciate what you have until it is gone. Lord knows I under appreciated my dad most of my life, especially during the teen years.

Thank goodness I can hang onto the hope of a reunion only possible through Christ's sacrifice and love.  The waiting is still so hard.